Why I've Decided to Come Back to Blogging

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

I'm back (and why I'm here to stay)
I haven't blogged regularly in two years and in those two years, I've sometimes forgotten that I have a blog.  Blogging has been an integral part of my life for more than seven years and yet, it seems like a lifetime ago. Perhaps it's because I've spent nearly a third of my life blogging about books and the other two-thirds doing other things. I've contemplated about the future of this blog ever since I've stopped blogging regularly, vacillating between stopping, like so many of those before me, and continuing. 

Looking back, I ask myself how I've managed to regularly blog while being a student because planning, reading and writing take up a lot of time. I still don't have the answers to how I managed it. I won't lie and say that I missed blogging the entire time I was gone, because there were many times that I didn't. I did other things that I didn't do when I blogged and I'm thankful I got to explore as well as develop my own sense of self, which is so critical.  When I blogged, I planned out everything, even if it meant saying no to doing certain things, read anytime I could, which often included down time during class, and flipped through catalogs when I could. In the years where I blogged sporadically, I became more impulsive, saying yes to things hours before and loosened up on planning. It was actually reading Paul Kalanithi's When Breath Becomes Air (a book that I've been meant to read since I found out about when it was still on pre-order) earlier this year when I felt that itch to write regularly again. 
“Years ago, it had occurred to me that Darwin and Nietzsche agreed on one thing: the defining characteristic of the organism is striving.”- Paul Kalanithi, When Breath Becomes Air
Kalanithi's writing about his undergraduate experiences and the balance of science as well as literature felt so familiar to me. Before, I felt guilty that I loved both literature and science, while my friends just loved science singularly and looking on the outside, I saw their wholehearted fanaticism toward science akin to my immense love for stories and books. I was split between two vastly different things. However, as time goes on, I've seen that both are incredibly similar. Both science and literature are searching for answers to the unknown, whether that's answers about ourselves or others.

Throughout the years, I've explored my identity as an Asian American and as an Asian American who's been vocal about the need for Asian Americans in the media, I've been incredibly happy by the increase in Asian American writers and entertainers but I've also been incredibly frustrated by the steps backwards. 

The current political situation in this country scares me and the vitriol that's directed toward immigrants is toxic to say the least. It's also why diverse books and authors are more needed now that ever. We can't pretend and say that minority writers aren't important because it's those statements that partially got us into this mess-- the idea that minority stories don't matter and that we can live in the majority story. 

Books, much like food, expose people to difference experiences and cultures. It's part of the reason why I love books so much and why I've been so passionate about Asian American stories in the past couple of years. 

I'm looking to write more about Asian American stories, both fictional and real life, as well as a mix of health/medicine since that's what I've been up to in recent years (and why I've been so busy). I hope you'll join me on this journey once again. 

1 comment

  1. Eeeep! Was so excited when I saw your post pop up on Feedly! Welcome back :D And I can't wait to see what you've got to share once again <3

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