I've been thinking about this for a very long time now and I don't know how to begin this. I picked up the phrase, "Well that's uncomfortable" from a friend but it's become a quote that's associated with me whenever there's an awkward situation. Well, this is an awkward situation and I really want to say "This is uncomfortable."
I suppose with every story, there is an end and a beginning so I'll start with the end of the story and move my way to the beginning. Alice-Jane is just a pen name.
There are a lot of reasons that I've come up with why I use a pen name (my blog's name is Crazy Red Pen and pen name [This was somehow pun-ny in my mind once], that I wanted to separate my internet and real life, even my full name is common... the list goes on) but the simplest and truest reason is, it was 2009 and I had too many of internet safety classes from school to use my real name. A quote from a movie comes to mind, "I was young! And naive! Please forgive me!" (Cue some rain and a boyfriend. The scene is set. Who the boyfriend is, I don't know.)
But I don't think I wasn't being myself at anytime during this experience. Alice-Jane is as much me as my real name is. What I felt, wrote, and blogged about were truthful. Some are the words I wanted to say in person, but never did. Looking back, I'm glad I wrote them down.
However, I want to say these things with my name. I want to say that diversity is important, that I really, really like a book (EVEN LIKE THIS IN ALL CAPS) and that sometimes I am scared of doing things.
Ultimately though, at the end of the day, I'm just another girl who's maybe (un)healthy obsessed with books and I hope you'll stay with me (and this ridiculous blog of mine that I've kept for the longest time ever).
And if you do, I want to say hi. My name is Jessica and I like to read.
If you have any concerns or questions, comment below or tweet me. I'll try to answer as best as I can.
With much love. xo