Our Obsession with Perfection

Midweek, my MacBook Pro suddenly didn't start up and I freaked out. I had a test on Thursday and papers due the next couple of days so I needed a computer. I had bought a Mac in part because people said that Macs were more reliable and less prone to malware than PCs but even then, Macs aren't perfect. They can break and while I'm happy I was about to fix the problem myself, I'm reminded that I need to let go of the idea of perfection.

As a blogger, it's easy to get caught up in the numbers. You got  mid-hundred hits on a blog post but only got around 100 hits on the latest one? You made a mistake. You're supposed to create things, things that get hits, get attention, right? Wrong.

As a human, it's easy to get caught up in the next big thing. You want the A on the test, you want the cute boy, you want the raise, you want the job, you want the 2.5 kids with the white picket fence and a dog but what happens when you don't get something? Are you less of a person? Are you somehow a failure? No, you're not. 

Creative Spaces// Reading Nooks

A couple weeks ago, I visited my friend's dorm room and I was surprised that she managed to fit a reading nook complete with a fuzzy carpet and a bookshelf in her room, while keeping things in a orderly but open configuration.

"Darn,"I thought as I thought of my own living space-- with the suitcases, shoe rack, and boxes below my bed. Reading nooks aren't something that's going to happen in my space anytime soon by the looks of it. 

But I have a confession to make. Much like I'm a little OCD about my books, I don't really like reading on the floor or really sitting on my bed either. I tried working on a powerpoint in bed and it was one of the stranger things I've done. I just can't do it. As much as most of my life revolves around a desk-- my academic life, my personal life seems to revolve around desk and tables, too. I read most comfortably when I'm sitting at my desk, though granted, with a pillow. I do the best work when I'm sitting at my desk. I blog for the most part, sitting at my desk or any other desk/table-like configuration. 

Yet, I can indulge myself and dream about reading nooks-- sitting down on the ground or reading in bed, can't I? So, I will. 

Let's Be Quirky

I've dropped a few hints here and there about some exciting news a while ago, but I'm so, so incredibly happy to finally share it. I've written for various publications on the interwebs, apart from my blog before and I've always had fun doing so. 

Find Joy in Work
So yes, this is my way of saying I have an announcement. 

Tech Meets Books//A Great and Terrible Beauty Wallpaper

One of my all-time favorite books is Libba Bray's A Great and Terrible Beauty and I absolutely adore the quote "In the end, there is always a beginning" which is from the book so I made a wallpaper for it! I actually made two because I couldn't decide which one I liked better so I hope you find one you like!

A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray Wallpaper
A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray Wallpaper
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It's Alright

"괜찮아" said one of my friends, as I was worrying over something. It was calming to hear it, as I was contemplating what to do. Roughly translated, it means "It's alright" in Korean and I needed to hear it.

Lately, I've been reading a lot of Morgan Matson. I like the way she writes stories-- lighthearted for the most part but so, so profound. I need lightheartedness, right now. 

School started so I'm buried under textbooks and my laptop for the most part. I'm declaring one of my majors this week, which is exciting but I'm full of trepidation. I'm an adult now, or at least that's what I'm telling myself as I play with Legos and eat grain puffs that are meant for teething babies*. 



I once wanted a manual on how to deal with grief because I was falling apart two years ago, but despite my experience, I'm no better equipped to deal with this than I was then and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it all. Some of my classmates and college mates passed away and I'm trying to make sense of it all. As I'm writing this, I'm hitting the backspace key on my keyboard because nothing really captures it-- the memories that are flooding back, how I once said hi as he stood by the water fountain and I was walking to my friend's room and how I briefly saw the other guy as I walked into class.

It's strange how everything hit the news so fast, even to me, a person whose extracurriculars revolve around the news, and how nothing the news really says-- the cold hard facts, will really capture who these people were. For many, it'll just be another tragic story but for my college community, it's personal. I had lived in the same dorm and we had mutual friends. Although our interactions were brief, a hi here and there when we ran into each other, whether it was in dorm or on campus, it was given that I would be seeing him when we came back this year. I had seen him the earlier in the day when he passed away. He was sitting with my friend in both of my classes. I never knew the other men, as the news likes to call them, but I did see them in passing a couple times. It's weird to see them called adults because to all of us, we're still young and childhood was only a couple years ago.

It's surreal to see their faces on the news.

It's still hard to wrap my head around the idea that they're gone.

Tech Meets Books// The Geek's Guide to Dating by Eric Smith

I really liked making this week's Tech Meets Books wallpaper. I met the very cool Eric Smith at BEA this year and got a signed copy of The Geek's Guide to Dating. I somehow made small talk about Philly, which was a feat because I tend to be unintelligible when I meet authors.

Philly holds a special place in my heart and it's so great seeing it change for the better in the past decade. Philly is also where the Quirk Books headquarters is, so I was filled with a lot of Philly-love at once. (On an unrelated note, if you're ever in the area, Omoi Zakka on Pine St. and S. 16th St in downtown Philly is a design/Japan lover's delight.  They have so many pretty, whimsical things from stationery to daily items such as alarm clocks. If you're not, they have an online store as well.)

The Geek's Guide to Dating is a cute book filled with dating advice skewed toward geeks (including book lovers) and the dating advice is practical. It was incredibly fun to read and I loved how there were 8-bit illustrations throughout the book.

And as usual, I made a wallpaper inspired by the book and I wanted to do something with 8-bit, which I've never really done before. I hope you like the wallpaper!

Geek's Guide to Dating Wallpaper
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